A fan's first love follows her to the grave (F.T. Island's Return)

I wrote a post about FTI's comeback for Beautiful Journey, but back then i talked about what it felt like to witness my first comeback. You know, last year it was about first times. This year is about confirmations.
Now i have no doubts: if i wasn't a TripleS i would be a Primadonna.


I have been obsessed with everyone in k-pop since i joined the fandom and each and every single one of the idols i came to love at some point during my journey still fill a part of my heart.
You should know my rule by now: if i get obsessed it's because they help me. I fall for the people before the artists. And sure, if the artists are as brilliant and inspiring as the people, then they'll climb a few more steps up my list. Anyway the point is that even if i don't spazz over someone as much as i did when i fell for them, they surely still rest somewhere in my heart. It's always been hard to completely let go of someone for me.
Some of these idols, a smaller circle, are not simply idols but anchors. Those ones who marked a moment of my life by walking me through my bad days.
And then there's an even smaller circle inside this one, a sort of elite that has the memories. Those who bring me back to a specific time and place whenever i see them.
Only two out of my whole bias list belong in this last category: SS501 and F.T. Island.
It doesn't matter if i watched all their shows, or a bunch of performances. It doesn't matter that i've followed them since i knew them and that there's almost nothing i don't know about them. The memory of the first time i saw them will forever be the first thing that leaps to mind.
Seunghyun is still the weirdo lip-syncing to an english song in front of an empty plate, with his cutlery in his hands;  Jae Jin is the one in a wardrobe; Minhwan is that kid that can't be still when he laughs; Hong Ki is that freak with orange hair and paper tears stuck onto his cheeks. Jong Hoon...well, Jong Hoon is a flow of memories but i don't think i will ever forget the moment i saw his smile for the first time. He will always remain the stranger with a smile that's not even possible in real life, the carefree boy who really wanted to stick his tongue into Jae Jin's ear. XD


SS501 were my saviors, but FTI were the divide that opened the road for them.
If they didn't show me how entertaining korean people could be, i would have never bothered exploring. And now that SS501 is on hiatus and almost the whole kpop scene is not being particularly impressive to me, now that i need a distraction like i needed it at the beginning, F.T. Island has been the best anchor.
AAA was doing great, but then it got ruined. Not irreversably, but still a little spoiled.
SS501 solo activities are off-limits to international fans. Super Junior phase was useful, but like i said FTI has the memories. Memories that are relevant to what i'm going through.
They remind me of when my friends and i were a team, when my bff was happier, when i felt passioned about something again, when orange hair seemed an absurd invention. That sleepover party my bff and i had a lifetime ago, spent to watch FTI's concert. When i told her to stay in my room and then i played the dvd, she heard 'F.T. Island' and came running to the living room and hugged me.
Give me a video, an event, a show, a quote of FTI and i have a memory. Mostly bff-related, but still a memory of a finally easier unbelievably smooth better time.
FTI makes me miss that, but at the same time they take me back there and i like being there. It helps me believing i've been worse and that even if things get harder now, i've seen a brighter light before and i will see it again.


I might fall out of love with everyone in this world, in kpop, but F.T. Island and SS501 were such a novelty when i met them, that they'll forever be special.
I don't know if my best friends and i will ever break up. I'm not sure of anything these days. No one is giving me the confirmations i constantly need anymore, not counting the cunts who keep confirming their cuntness.
What i know is that k-pop and F.T. Island are among the best gifts my bff has ever given me.
I am happy they're back because my life feels a lonely mess again. They fixed it once. Hopefully they'll do it again.


Love Ya,
Menu ah

Big Bang is back!

Holy Shisus in kpop heaven! I thought this day would never get real! After all the postponing and stuff. >.< Finally!
So, there's just a few things i need to say about it. Nothing special, but this is my diary so i'll write no matter how lame and irrelevant to you it may sound. \o/


I probably can't know what it feels like to be a VIP today. I mean, not completely.
I know what it feels to witness the awesomeness and hugeness and massiveness of a Big Bang's comeback. I wasn't expecting anything less, honestly. 
But i also know that there's a crowd of people out there who have been waiting for this day for two years and probably can't believe this is happening right now.
I've been knowing Big Bang for one year so i don't know what it feels like to see a goodbye stage and then going two years waiting for a comeback that seemed like it would never come.
But you know what we say: 'Being a fan doesn't mean you've been there from the beginning. It means you're willing to be there 'til the end.'
Well, despite the fact i'm not feeling the epicness of their new songs (OTL) i was feeling something epic while watching their comeback special. So i guess the VIP inside me isn't completely dead.
She's like struggling to get her pride back, but she's alive at least. Small, short, lame, staring at the void trying to figure out how it's even possible that i don't like their songs...but alive.
I know it's not a big deal, but if we look at this through the kpop fandom lens which emphasizes every little thing, i'm so butthurt for not loving this record as much as everyone else.
Yet i've been smiling no-stop for the past 60 minutes and something.
Hearing Daesung's voice again, watching them laughing their ass off during the Secret Garden parody, seeing Ji Yong's cuteness (which seemed to be gone, sunk under the cool side), feeling the reassurance of Youngbae's hair. XD


I feel guilty in a way. When i saw Ji Yong's crying at the Big Show and i was hearing VIP shouting their hearts out i felt guilty because i don't wanna be that fan that gives up on them just because they've changed.
So i'm glad i watched their comeback, because it showed me that though their music may have changed they're still them and as long as they'll be i'll get their back.
Yes, Big Bang is probably the kpop group that's changed the most since their debut but i know what they've always wished for was to show their true selves. It would be stupid to turn my back to them for being themselves. I suppose.
Of course i miss Sunset Glow and Lady and Oh My Friend and Wonderful and Dirty Cash and all that stuff that still makes me wanna dance and makes me feel better whenever i hear it. I miss feeling what i felt when i went to my photography course and i caught myself hmmm-ing their songs during boredom moments. But i know kpop makes you grow fonder of personalities rather than music (though music is what catches our attention).
So yeah, they still have all my past respect, the one that got me into the fandom. Therefore you're still not allowed to bash them in front of me.
I remember i once wrote 'Add GD to the list of things you probably don't wanna mention in front of Menu ah unless you have her same exact opinion about it.'
Extend that to the whole group.
And if one day they'll decide to come back to their original sound or change it in a way that will be more appealing to me, then i'll know bearing with my dissatisfaction now was worth it.


OTL It still sucks though.
So now all the 3 brats are upset at me for some reason. My daily life is so troublesome, i'm telling you. XD


Oh, one more thing: if you missed the SBS special then you just missed a huge piece of history. Sucks for you.


Love Ya,
Menu ah

A song split many ways

Here's what i should have said yesterday..

Not Alone is a sort of non-discriminatory song.
One melody, one text, one voice, a thousand meanings.


To the world it means there's always someone you can relate to and rely on. When you think you're weird or when all the people you met turned their back to you because you were somehow different, and you gave up on friendship or love. When you don't expect it, the moment you stop hoping, there comes someone who proves you wrong, someone who's been through the same things and have been probably looking for you all along.
I can say i've been there in friendship. The friends i met in primary school can no longer be considered my friends. And in one specific case i lost faith in friends and boys at the same time. I still haven't fixed the love part, but it took me three years to find another person i could call a best friend. And what struck me about her was just that we had similar experiences and could talk freely about ANYTHING though we didn't know each other for long.


To Jung Min, Not Alone probably means that though he stands on the stage by himself for the first time in five years, he has his family and friends and brothers back stage. And if i know him at least a tiny little bit, i know he thinks he wouldn't be on that stage if it wasn't for all of them.


To SS501, Hyun Joong, Young Saeng, Kyu Jong, Hyung Jun, it may mean they won't stand alone when their time comes.
It kinda fits. Jung Min is the first one coming back as a solo singer and is leaving a sort of message to the others. He's always been the strong pillar. Solo activities won't change that.


To TripleS it means we can always and forever lean on them. We didn't leave them alone when they parted and when everyone thought they were letting us down. They're not leaving us alone now.
Though Jung Min is the only one on the screen, you can't expect to be only Jung Min, when you've been SS501's Sexy Charisma Park Jung Min since high school.
Watching him was like feeling the essence of the other four. That's the emotion i love the most during his perfomance.
I still cannot believe he's promoting alone, but i know it's not a bad thing. It's for him, to grow up as a person and artist; for them, to come back to us with even more charm and talent and feelings to deliver; and it's for all of us, to love them even more and get even deeper reasons to protect them and support them. 
It can't be a bad thing.


To me, Not Alone is what Jung Min represents in my life, translated into music.
After exactly one year i'm back to the same place where this amazing, constantly stunning journey started from.
Hearing his voice and staring at his smile and witnessing his strength, to relieve my own hardships.
Jung Min has a courage i will never have. The courage of tirelessly trying and testing himself. The courage of overcoming fears. The courage of not taking the easiest way out or the easiest way at all. Ever.
This is just one more reason to admire him and stand in his awe.
Yesterday i read this statement:

"Though we still support each other and talk every day, i try not to meet the other members often because i'm afraid i'd feel dependant."

What?
If i were him i wouldn't sign in a different company, first. And if i was forced to, i'd still run to Hyung Jun every night and get drunk with Leader to forget stress and use Saengie and Kyu as therapists.
There he goes, Sexy Charisma pointing out how irreplaceable and tough he is.
But it's not only this.
As stupid as it may sound, when i listen to his song i feel like he's by my side, like if that song is for me, like if it was written because i needed him to say those things.
He helped me only by stepping into my life. I wrote an entry about this already so i won't delive into this topic. But he did help me a lot and i just feel this song is a gift, to cherish that protection he gave me and relive it whenever he may not be around.


Not Alone is literally a song for everyone and this transpires from every single note and gaze and gesture. 
Probably the most meaningful song i've heard in one year of kpop.
I cried listening to Not Alone, not only because of the awesomeness, but because when i look at him in the eyes - though he's not looking at me - i know holding on last summer, after all SS501 has done for me, was worth it. I'm here now and the tears i shed back then and even earlier are like that scar that doesn't hurt anymore but reminds you that you fell once and stood up again.
When i look at him, in this song more than ever, i feel grateful for everything Park Jung Min is, everything i got from him, even indirectly. And i feel he will always, always be my stronghold, our stronghold as long as we'll let him be and as long as his inhuman strength will keep him standing for all of us. 


Love Ya,
Menu ah

#501PJMNotAlone

I usually use trending sessions to express what i feel about a certain person/event.
I couldn't do that this time. I got kidnapped by my TSis in a sort of journey back to the days when we were all fooling around in Twitterland together.
Which was awesome, but this means my tweets weren't very meaningful.
Still, i've always written a report of my sessions and i certainly won't skip this one.
Maybe i'll write a separate post about what Not Alone means to me.
For now, this is what i have.


Ok, this is becoming more about me than you. Sorry. XD Though i love you for the impact you had on my life, so...
So, as soon as i said #501pjmnotalone was trending already&it wasn't fun, the tag disappeared. If it doesn't come back i'm gonna get killed.
I was still trying to decide if making this trending serious or not. I'm not ready. o.O I'm not used to this anymore. 
Ok, whatever. Let's just...pour my heart out. As usual. Hwaiting! 
JUNG MIN AH!!! ;_; You made me so illiterate that i'll probably sound like i don't care abt this comeback. o.O 
And btw, it's so cool that we call it a comeback and not a solo debut. Like 'Yeah, the others should be here but got lost.' 
Oh! XD Imagine Jung Min's face if the other 4 got lost on their way to the studio. XD ...Ok, sorry. Not relevant.
When i read the lyrics the first time i got one simple sudden thought: that's the song that describes what JungMin is for me.
"Not alone, not sad anymore, definitely not alone, never exhausted again." You all know this story, right? 
Though i've written about it a thousand times, i still don't think i can actually express the gift Jung Min was to me. 
And i don't have words to say how proud i am. Though it's not like i've done anything for this comeback. XD 
Jung Min ah, i can only hope all the hardships drifted away from you. I hope i'll never see you crying in sadness again. ;_; 
Not because you're not allowed to, but because what messed up world would make someone like you cry? 
If you could only know what a light you are to all of us. *_* 
Yeah, i know. I speak like if you're an untouchable god. (I guess you would agree with this. XD)
Seeing you on that stage alone was kinda bittersweet, actually. Though i didn't realise it was, until i saw you. 
But i suppose that was what you're trying to say. You're not really alone when it comes to SS501.
I hope you know your fans are all still here. And i can't help it but imagining the other 4 brats cheering like mad, too. All is well, really. And once again because of you. 
Your fierce determination made me think about my future a lot, probably more than how much i've thought abt it in my life.
Honestly. You made me feel wasted. XD Not blaming you. Put down the carrots. Just...yeah...what am i, compared to you? 
I wonder if i'd be different if i met u earlier. But i still hope trying to make up for it now will make me more confident. 
And why am i talking to you like if you were here? Omg. Too much roleplaying. Blame the brat. 
Random thing i just realised: i love the down down down part in the choreography. The second one. 
Another random thing i just realised: there must be too many kpop tags atm. So Twitter is taking turns. XD 
Guys, it's my fault. I might have accidentally suggested that it's better when tags have a hard time trending. *runs* 
Oh! And since everyone is remembering smth, i remember the 1st ever raving chapter. ;_; Throwing JM's socks at each other. 
You guys are confusing me. There are like 5 people w Not Alone cover as avatar rn. XD 
So, if you read my Tumblelog you probably know already. But the image keeps creeping into my mind so i'll say it...
#501pjmnotalone is back, btw. Anyway...Who watched Persona in Seoul Encore?....Rhetorical question. No need to answer.
There's just this awesome moment, when Jung Min runs after Kyu. Can you picture Jung Min's smile for me for a sec?....There.
Now, is it me or you feel all the meaningfulness of the words 'Jung Min is the strong pillar of the group' when he smiles? 
Because i cried like a kid seeing that scene. And i'm almost sure it was because of that. His strength. 


Here i forgot to say something but i remembered now: i do feel his strength in his smile, but i also feel how much the others rely on him. The moment Kyu looked at him, despite the evilness, i felt the brotherhood. ;_;


Oh, Jong Hoon ah is online! Jong Hoon ah, trend! Come on! It's not even for Saengie ah.....ok, i ruined it. 
I was saying...does he really endure all of that not failing in hiding it? He makes everything seem so easy. Ide... 
Jung Min ah! Just say it now! It's the right day! You're not real, are you? You're a cyborg or smth. Leader's alien friend. 
I forgot , didn't i? =.= Anyway that's why Hyun Joong believes in aliens so badly. Because he has you. Just. Say it. >.<
Omg, i suddenly miss my fake phone calls with an upset betrayed Jung Min ah. ;_; 
My trending session isn't making any sense. Just...too many memories related to one person. XDD 
And omg. Guys. It's so cool that almost all my oldest dearest TSis are here today. ;_; 
Aaaand, #501pjmnotalone is gone again. XDD LOL Imma sit here and watch this nonsense. 


AFTER THIS I STARTED CHATTING WITH MY TSIS AND KINDA MISSED THE WHOLE POINT OF THE TRENDING SESSION. STILL FUN, THOUGH. SINCE WE DON'T REALLY CATCH UP OFTEN ANYMORE, IT WAS NICE. IT WAS LIKE GOING BACK IN TIME. LIKE I SAID.
GUYS, EVEN IF I "HATE YOU" WHEN YOU BULLY ME THAT UNSCRUPULOUSLY, I LOVE YA!!! AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. *_*
To those who aren't part of the TwitterSisterhood, you won't get much of what we're saying because we mentioned a few old anecdotes we share. Sorry. ':D


Mai: and all the bullying Menu ah, ya Cal! We need to talk sometime soon, I miss bullying w you! 
Menu: I don't. XD I'd like to remind you (you as in @Maisimus) that i wouldn't be so confused if it wasn't for you and Cal. XDD 
Win: Aigo suddenly I remember my first days in twitter. Menu ah's complicated love story, slumbporn party with Cal, Mai, Nov XD
Menu: My life story is still complicated. XD I mean, it wasn't. Until Jung Min came back. 
Win: I can't even rmbr how many men u're dealing with, Menu XD 
Menu: YA! I've changed! XD
Mai: LIARI!! XD
Menu: No, for real. It's only Saengie&Jung Min now. And Mai. Nobody asked you! XDD 
Mai: SHALL I BRING TUMBLR FOR EVIDENCE? XD
Menu: Tumblr is all abt Saengie&Jung Min. Your argument is invalid. XD 
Mai: What about ravings?
Menu: That's because i'm attached to the brats. Don't you have a trending session to help w? Really. Don't miss me that much. XD
Win: I think beside miss SS501, all of u also miss bullying Menu ah.
Mai: ME? What? Naaw!!xD
Menu: Well, at least i have a role i suppose. XD Oh, and Mai actually doesn't miss that 'cause she still bullies me on Tumblr. =.= 
Win: I guess @Maisimus loves u too much, Menu LOL~ 
Mai: DO NOT! XD
Menu: Mai, lying is a sin. XD 
Mai: You should listen to yourself, Menu ah.


Win: You are sure not alone, babe. (to Jung Min) All ur lovers are here. 
Mai: Menu does't count anymore. She's an Eternal Smile.
Menu:  ;_________________________; WHAT? 
Hiromi: Really?
Menu: Last week Mai said Jung Min is still my ultimate bias. She knows but has too much fun bullying me. XD 
Mai: It was a weak moment for me! Besides, I also said Saeng and Kyu are your biases!xD
Menu (to Mai and Cal): Ihu all. ;_; But i love Hiromi, Win and Nov. *runs&cries* I think i can state for sure that i only get along w Kyu's fans o.O 
Cal: U sure? Kyu's buins are scary too. Ok I ask them to show u their provess.
Menu: Never as scary as Eternal Smiles. Trust me. XD 


Imma officially ask Twitter daddy to provide TripleS a sort of chars bonus. One for tagging&one for actually writing smth XD


ENDING


Ok, i basically fooled around for this whole trending session so i'll just...ok...
@JungMi0403 Ayo! Just stopping by to say THANKYU, JUNG MIN SSI! ;_; For this album, the message in your song, for who you are&what you mean to us. ThankSS!!! Don't ever ever e.v.e.r change. I'm serious. Ever. We'd still love you, but don't ever change. Please?
And whether you'll win or not, Not Alone is above all an awesome gift to TripleS. ThankSS for staying with us! 

50 and 1 reasons why i love SS501

I wrote this before reading the news about their comeback. Yet, i feel like i have one more reason to update my blog today. I had tears in my eyes last night. I was going to bed when i found the link to the article. And for once, i honestly deeply loved that band of bashing brats who go by the name of Allkpop.
I was thinking i had to save this for the beginning of December. It'll be my first TripleS birthday, though for some reason the date '26th of November' keeps buzzing in my head. I don't know why my senses tell me that's the exact day when i fell in love with SS501. Like if on that day, last year, my brain automatically recorded that info because it knew i would want to remember that detail in the future.
Well, thanKYU brain! For once you collaborate. \o/
So.
Last January i found myself writing 5 reasons why i loved each SS501 member. It was quite easy because my memories of them were all spreaded over the previous 30 days or something.
Now it's been almost one year of increasing 'lobe' for an unbelievably close group, one year of costant learning and fun and yeah, pain.
They've been right by my side for almost 365 days, 24/7. Through everything. And i mean everything. From journeys in my car until the minutes before falling asleep. I know them a bit better and i've collected many more reasons to love them. 
So i'm gonna write down my 10 reasons why i love each and every one of them.




KIM HYUN JOONG


1. His 4Dness. It's the reason why i fell for him and is still the reason why i love him every day. It's in all his gestures and words. Which makes him unique.


2. His hard work. The way no matter how dorky he can be, he constantly keeps in mind he's the Leader. He bears the whole group burdens and sometimes even his fans's burdens. I'm sorry about that. The least i can do is to love him more than possible.


3. His strength to ignore the bad careless words he's flooded with and turn a possible anger or demoralization into endless gratefulness for his fans.


4. His humbleness. That thing that makes him say "I don't think i'm one in a million. I think we can all achieve something if we fight and work."


5. His voice. Not his singing voice. Just his voice. When i watched the first episode of Playful Kiss and i heard his voice again after months of written messages i felt home somehow.


6. His smile, that trapped me 12 months ago and keeps amazing me with that hidden veil of tease in it.


7. He is everything i want in a guy. When i watched We Got Married I realised he was. Funny, careful, not into sugary things but drop dead romantic at the proper time. Always able to erase sadness and mark the happy moments forever. Without even trying. Open and honest.


8. His courage. Not really sure if i could explain this, but i feel my Leader is brave.


9. His manhood. I'll be blunt: he emanates manhood from every pore.


10. I honestly think there is no other Leader like him, not only because he's SS501's Leader. You know me, you know how many groups i love from the bottom of my heart. If i say it, it's because i mean it. 


HEO YOUNG SAENG


1. This


2. will


3. have


4. to


5. wait


6. 'til


7. the


8. 3rd


9. of


10. November


His birthday is too close and i have a pretty clear view of my trending session. So, no. I'm sorry. I won't give you any preview.


KIM KYU JONG


1. I've said this a thousand times: Kyu is a perfect boy. A perfect brother. Count the times he's mentioned Eunah in his messages.


2. A perfect son. Remember his mom's letter and the earnest respect he nourishes for his father.


3. A perfect friend. Ask Saengie ah. XD


4. A perfect member. Can't get rid of the memories of all the times he cried for his group, the times he cheered for his group. Most recent memory: the moment when he hugged Jung Min during Green Peas, at Persona in Seoul.


5. *wears helmet* He's damn freaking hot. Ok! God bless countrymen! So glad his choreographies always requires to take the jacket off. *jumps on shuttle and moves to Mars*


6. The way he felt like he didn't fit in. It makes him normal and i feel him so much. I've never really fit in either, until i found my current friends. 


7. The way he pronounces the s.


8. His absolute randomness, that comes right when you just got used to the idea Kyu is the normal one.


9. His ideal girlfriend. The fact he wants to teach something to his girl. The idea he can be so reliable. It makes me wish i was a bit more romantic myself.
You know when people say "Edward Cullen isn't real"? I used to mourn for that truth, but now i could easily reply "Edward Cullen may not be real, but Kyu is."


10. His smile, that never fades away, from his lips and his heart. No matter how many hardships life's thrown his way, he is Kim Kyu Jong. He's made it this far, life can just go and choke on its own shit.
(I know. Shit and Kyu aren't supposed to figure in the same sentence.) 


PARK JUNG MIN


1. All together: "He saved Menu ah's life!" Good. You're improving.


2. Always and forever: HE COMMUNICATES WITH ALIENS!


3. He never rests. Almost more than Leader. Which isn't always healthy but makes me want to move my ass and shake off my unbeatable lazyness. And trust me: no one in 22 years has ever achieved this much.


4. He's so flawless it hurts to think that even if he was a schoolmate or anyway not an idol, i wouldn't have the slightest chance to approach him. Not even as a friend. No matter how much i love him.


5. His frankness. He may sound tactless at times, but we know he's simply honest. To the core. And speaking of frankness, if everyone had at least 1/3 of his honesty the world would be a better place.


6. His low warm special voice.


7. That feeling he gives me, like if he's a 6 year old kid in a 23 year old successful gorgeous mature man's body. He knows when to have fun and when to be serious, still without making grown-up matters boring.


8. He's an uncle. The idea he's an uncle makes me want to pinch his cheeks. Which never happens. He's probably one of the few idols i rarely wish to pinch. But why do i feel like his heart skips a beat when he sees his nephew?


9. His absolute cheek. When he pesters Baby and later teams up with him against the hyungs. When he pesters the hyungs all by himself. When he just "jungmins" around. How can you not love him? If i had to fight with him, and we would fight a lot, i could never sulk for too long. I swear.


10. He taught me to dream again, and no matter how many bias Shisus will send my way. Park Jung Min will always have my heart. (Or at least half of it. The other half...you know...Saengie ah...Nevermind. I'll tell you on the 3rd of November.)


KIM HYUNG JUN


1. Smile goes on top this time.


2. On his birthday i said he's like Peter Pan. I'll stress that. He can say he's a man but i will never be able to stop calling him Baby.


3. His deep will to live and laugh and have fun.


4. He's a mood maker. Literally. Whatever his mood is, he makes my mood be the same.


5. I admit, despite he's my Baby always and forever, when he dances to his solos i get a weird feeling i won't explain further.


6. His love for his brother and the team those two make. Pure envy material.


7. His amazing ability to show his feeling to everyone, every time he needs to, no matter what. Whether he's happy or sad, toward men or women, older or younger, childhood friends or strangers. It must be hard for him to keep a secret. He's like the voice of innocence. What did i say? Peter Pan!


8. He makes everyone fall for him despite he can be a pretty hardcore pestering kid. Ask Papa Bear.


9. His "yo sister" is enough to make my day for eternity.


10. The beautiful bond with the other members. And Jung Min. I know they're all brothers, but his birthday bash is imprinted into my heart, soul and mind for good.




SS501 are 501 for one reason. It's something people are having a hard time to understand, apparently. It's not just a name. SS501.
They're like a cards castle: you remove one and the whole thing collapses.
I love FTI, Big Bang, U-Kiss, B2ST, F.Cuz, T-Max. I respect SuJu and DBSK. And you should know when i love something or someone i would never do them wrong. So don't bash me for what i'm gonna say.
But. SS501 are the only group i just can't picture different from the way they are these days. The way they've been for 5 years.
FTI moved on without Won Bin, U-Kiss didn't have Kiseop at the beginning, T-Max renewed themselves completely this year, SuJu confuse me but anyway they're still standing perfectly whether they're 15, 13, 10 or whatever. DBSK seem to be moving on, too.
The others. despite how much the idea hurts me, i can picture them apart or without a member.
But SS501. They're like 5 pillars. One crashes down and the roof won't stand. Not for long at least. The weight, for the other four pillars, gets too overwhelming.
That's my 51st reason: they broke into my life when my hope was about to fade away forever and showed me true friendship, not-blood brotherhood, dreams coming true, strength, success through merit and not second means. All things this messed up world is desperately trying to smash. They can still exist, if you work hard to achieve them.
They make me dream and at the same time they make me grow up and realise i have to be my own destiny. My own change. Good things happen if i go out there and look for them and fight to make them mine.
This is why, no matter how crazy i may sound, SS501 are real to me.