You're My Heaven

I really love using titles as...well...titles. XD Anyway...

All i have in mind at the moment is a loud, neverending AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But AAAAAAAAAAAAAH wouldn't help me to describe what i'm feeling right now. Actually nothing would.

It is said these are not the important things in life. I say 'The hell with you! It is important!' It is important when you actually care about someone even if you don't know them and you'll probably never do. It is important when they did a lot for you even if they have no idea who you are. It is important when you see 5 guys performing and when they look at the camera you feel like you know them.

It is important when you're sitting in front of a computer with your heartbeat way out of control, your hands clapping like a kindergarten kid at Christmas and your voice shouting 'THE FREAKING SOUND!! DON'T FAIL ON ME NOW!! PLEASE!'

That's what i was doing. I just stared at them and kept thinking about all those precious SS501 moments of my life.

The truth is i CAN'T describe it. I could tell you that i wanted to cry, jump, shout, dance, hug people and laugh. But it would be just words to you.

I thought i was dying when i saw a allkpop article on the 1st of May (that damned 501 day) saying SS501 had released their teaser pics. I thought i was dying for the thrill when seeing that article and for laughter when seeing those pics.

I mean..gas masks? You couldn't even see their faces. Especially JungMin's face! It was more covered than others, like some evil god was trying to make me pay for putting him aside for a while. And Saengie had handcuffs...Like some joking god wanted to support my ravings about his deflating issue.

Then the teaser&the album came out (24th of May i think. XD) And i said 'Teaser pics were nothing! Seeing them, actually seeing them&hearing their voices is what is killing me!'

Again...i was wrong.

Because when i was tweeting nonsense and a very familiar, heart-lighting voice bothered my ears...THAT was when my heart really started beating like no god could have never stopped it.

And the last minutes before the actual stage was heaven in hell, hell in heaven. Whatever...

It was like sitting outside your classroom 5 minutes before your final exam. Thinking 'I can do it!.....But it's damn scary!'

I don't know...i only know that the more i see them, the more i know them, the more my days go by with them in my life i feel the urge to thank everyone who's sharing this with me.

So if you're reading and you consider yourself part of this group, if you recognized a bit of yourself in these words....Menu ah THANKSS YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!

And i wish those 5 guys who made this day and these past months so bright for me could read this. Because it all ends up in a loud, neverending THANKYU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!

*crawls back to her crypt crying*